Holy Conspiracy

calmingmanatee:

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This is a photo of me going to the doctor! A doctor is a good person, who wants to help you.

Dear my lovely wonderful friend who is sad. (You will know who you are)

I want you to know I received your message. And that is you are sad all the time, if you are depressed, if you are having trouble just coping with life, if you are always scared, you need to go to the doctor.

If it was any other illness or problem you had (chest infection, broken leg, almost choked on a plastic bag that time), I would say the exact same thing. Just because it is an illness in your head, that does not make it any less real.

It is hard, because that darkness leaks into your life and makes you feel like there is no light anywhere. You might think you don’t deserve help, that only someone else can pull you out of this darkness, that you are not strong, that you are not worth having a real life.

But please remember that this illness is not you. It does not deserve to control your life. You deserve to control your life. You deserve to be happy.

And if you are saying “But I am so sad and I am so helpless and therapy will be hard and I don’t deserve to be happy and I just want someone to rescue me already,” then don’t go for you. Go for me. Say “I don’t want to go to therapy, but I will go because it will make Manatee stop nagging me.”

And for those of you this letter is not specifically aimed at, if you identify with any of this post, I want you to give it a go too.

You are strong, and you can fight this. You just need someone to throw you a rope.

And the doctor has that rope. You just need to let them know you need it.

xox Manatee